A Little of My Heart

Beanie and Belle,

Who are you? You are created for a purpose. You are made with a unique and blessed design. You are chosen by God, a plan has been laid out for you. You are special.
Belle, You are not special because you are beautiful, although some days I am blown away by your precious face.
You are special Beanie, You are not special because you are smart, although there are times that I am left speechless by your witty retorts.
The two of you are special because of the impact your path will have on the world. The mark you will make on the lives you touch as you grow will change history. You are special simply because you were created.

You do not have to be famous to make a mark. You do not have to perform outrageous stunts in front of millions to prove your worth. You do not and never will have to earn my love or anyone else's by any means but by being you.

I am sorry for the way the world is today. I wish that my apologies could make a change. That somehow I could make it so that self esteem was rooted in true understanding of your worth. Not in other peoples perceptions.
I wish I could walk with you Belle through junior high and high school and whisper in your ear, you are precious and loved! You are enough! You are worth it!
I wish that always you would believe me.

I wish for you Beanie that you would hear your father's voice above all others all the time. That you would know that you are strong and that respect and kindness are much more manly traits than belittling words and selfish tasteless behavior.
I wish that it would make the pressure disappear.

I wish most of all that I could hold on to right now forever. That you would be two and three and happy to play in a blanket fort secure in your place and purpose. Oblivious to the changes and expectations to come.
But I know that part of the blessing of being a Mommy, your Mommy, will be to watch you grow. To watch the struggles you go through and see you emerge victorious on the other side. I will ALWAYS be there for you even when the mistakes and trials are brought on by your own decisions. I will wait and pray as you journey on knowing full well that I can't see the whole picture.

I pray that as you grow you both take your responsibilities seriously. That you will step in when you see injustice, that you will be willing to stand firm even when your world seems to be crumbling. That you will feel the pain of those around you and not just walk on by. That you will brush aside the lies of our society and stand on truth. That you will support and protect each other when others seek to destroy.

This letter may seem premature. You are so young. Your biggest struggles right now consist of wanting to play with the same toy at the same time or wanting an extra piece of candy that has been refused. I am writing now today so that you will never be able to doubt that you have been prayed for, that you have a purpose. No matter the course of the rest of your life you have already made a mark. I love the two of you so much that today I am sharing a little of my heart with the world. You are, in whatever you do, doing it as a child of God and your mark will be eternal. I pray that you always remember and that it becomes written on your hearts,  You are special, You are precious, You are unconditionally loved.

Love,
Mommy